There is... I've someone who is very dear to me. He is, however, not here. And even if he were, we were not... bound exclusively to each other. With that in mind, I've decided that I will... not exclude myself from becoming engaged with others, while I am here.
I don't feel that I can truly offer you... or anyone... any hope of something lasting, just by very nature of this place -- one day either I or you will leave, after all. But, while I'm here, I--
I suppose, moreover, what I meant was that I've no real intention of promising myself to any one person. Not only because the Admiral would most likely be most distraught -- [grins, slightly, the sobers] -- but also because I see no practicality in it, given the constraints of the situation.
I realize, though, that makes me sound incredibly... shallow, and I don't necessarily mean to be. I would be more than happy, and truly honored, to do this with you again. But I don't want... to be unfair to you, after a sense.
[sighs, and laughs sort of dismissively at himself]
I guess should have found out before making out with you, huh? It's one thing to not be exclusive before you get serious, but...As much as I hate tradition for tradition's sake, I think I like that one. Monogamy, I mean.
I suppose it's not that I would be... completely adverse to the idea in general, merely that... [Cannot help the tiny smile again] I would feel very bad about the Admiral. He seems so honestly surprised, and delighted, whenever I do not recoil from him in horror at his form. I'd not like to put myself in a situation where I could not... provide him that comfort.
And so, I want to... be able to return that appreciation, for him. One of the first conversations I had with him was post something very much like the mistletoe, only it compelled confessions of love, instead of kisses.
He was, as you might imagine, very distraught. He'd been so sure he'd found someone -- several someones, by the sound of it -- that actually cared for him. So, when they came to their senses and were instead repulsed by him...
[waves hand] I can't help but want to be able to soothe that, in whatever small way that I can. Which is why I cannot truly promise monogamy to anyone else -- and I imagine he'd not want it, besides.
And... [reaches out, brushes his hand over your cheek like he could brush that look off your face by doing so] Please, don't feel badly -- if I am deliberating, it's by choice. Please do believe that as Marquis, I am not quite so malleable that I could be forced into making such a ...petty decision, if you'll forgive the term.
The security of an entire population, or the distribution of foodstuffs to them do not weigh on this decision, it's true.
It is a difficult decision still. The Admiral aside, I don't make much habit of pursuing others, so it would not be a terrible loss to continue not doing so... and you are very charming.
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There is... I've someone who is very dear to me. He is, however, not here. And even if he were, we were not... bound exclusively to each other. With that in mind, I've decided that I will... not exclude myself from becoming engaged with others, while I am here.
I don't feel that I can truly offer you... or anyone... any hope of something lasting, just by very nature of this place -- one day either I or you will leave, after all. But, while I'm here, I--
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I suppose, moreover, what I meant was that I've no real intention of promising myself to any one person. Not only because the Admiral would most likely be most distraught -- [grins, slightly, the sobers] -- but also because I see no practicality in it, given the constraints of the situation.
I realize, though, that makes me sound incredibly... shallow, and I don't necessarily mean to be. I would be more than happy, and truly honored, to do this with you again. But I don't want... to be unfair to you, after a sense.
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I...I don't know.
[sighs, and laughs sort of dismissively at himself]
I guess should have found out before making out with you, huh? It's one thing to not be exclusive before you get serious, but...As much as I hate tradition for tradition's sake, I think I like that one. Monogamy, I mean.
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Though, I've perhaps never had reason to try, particularly.
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I suppose it's not that I would be... completely adverse to the idea in general, merely that... [Cannot help the tiny smile again] I would feel very bad about the Admiral. He seems so honestly surprised, and delighted, whenever I do not recoil from him in horror at his form. I'd not like to put myself in a situation where I could not... provide him that comfort.
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Yes, I imagine he would. He does seem to delight in differences.
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He was, as you might imagine, very distraught. He'd been so sure he'd found someone -- several someones, by the sound of it -- that actually cared for him. So, when they came to their senses and were instead repulsed by him...
[waves hand] I can't help but want to be able to soothe that, in whatever small way that I can. Which is why I cannot truly promise monogamy to anyone else -- and I imagine he'd not want it, besides.
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Like now, for instance.
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And... [reaches out, brushes his hand over your cheek like he could brush that look off your face by doing so] Please, don't feel badly -- if I am deliberating, it's by choice. Please do believe that as Marquis, I am not quite so malleable that I could be forced into making such a ...petty decision, if you'll forgive the term.
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It is a difficult decision still. The Admiral aside, I don't make much habit of pursuing others, so it would not be a terrible loss to continue not doing so... and you are very charming.
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You're worried that I would perhaps forget you entirely, in that case?
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[BUT HE'S SMILING and clearly not upset]
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