[itp: no drama, just blatantly breaking the rule in the name of science]

[skinofalizard]

[knocks on David's door]

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[skinofalizard.livejournal.com]

How do you want me to leave?

[headcannon]

Less upset, ideally.

[Stands as well, reaches out]

Would you come here?

[skinofalizard.livejournal.com]

[shrugs lightly, but remains where he is]

You're trying to keep from hurting anyone, David, but...waiting hurts, too.

[headcannon]

...I see. [Drops his arm]

Then, I suppose I've more thinking to do.

[skinofalizard.livejournal.com]

[he, though, seems to have made a choice too

you're getting a sad hug now]

[headcannon]

[hugs tightly]

I fear I've left everyone waiting so long that everyone's bound to be unhappy.

[skinofalizard.livejournal.com]

[rests his head on your shoulder]

Yeah.

[headcannon]

[Does not seem very interested in letting you go]

...May I be completely, vulnerably honest for a moment?

[skinofalizard.livejournal.com]

[pulls his head back enough to give you a 'why the hell do you even think you have to ask you retard' look

only maybe not quite that harsh]

Of course you can.

[headcannon]

[Because being vulnerable is generally a bad idea and one I have been trained out of]

When I think of you... leaving, turning around and walking out, I feel-- it's very much like fear. I'm not quite sure what to do with this feeling. I ...am afraid.

I think that I have done something -- rather, not done something -- and that I am going to regret it deeply.

[skinofalizard.livejournal.com]

[wow that's MEAN you can't just SAY THAT to a sixteen year old what is WRONG WITH YOU]

[rests his head on your shoulder again, and just stands there]

[headcannon]

[I would wager "absolutely zero experience with people my own age and this sort of thing", is what]

I know that is... very selfish of me. I'm sorry. [Lets you go] You... are lovely, and wonderful, and I apologize deeply for the hurt I've already caused you. I shall endeavor to not do so again.

[skinofalizard.livejournal.com]

[...you may notice he's not moving]

I really...really like being with you, David.

[headcannon]

[Well that's... encouraging?]

And I very much enjoy being with you. Would you--

...Would it be entirely too selfish of me to ask you for another go at this? I have been...very focused on myself and... using my ignorance as an excuse.

[skinofalizard.livejournal.com]

[gives you a VERY QUICK, closed mouth kiss]

You...do need to figure out what you want, but...I can be more patient.

[headcannon]

[Blinks]

Ah, no, that's-- I mean, that's quiet kind of you, truly, but... I'd meant, rather, that, ah--

[skinofalizard.livejournal.com]

[oh. he lets go and takes a step back, then. pretty obviously embarrassed]

Oh--I thought--

--sorry.

[headcannon]

...I meant, there's no reason for you to continue to be patient, as I'd like you to stay with me. If you would.

--Although I suppose you may have to continue to be patient with my inability to express myself properly to you.

[skinofalizard.livejournal.com]

Well, that second part was a given. But...yeah. I...I want that, too.

[headcannon]

...I'm thankful.

[skinofalizard.livejournal.com]

[this is another hug]

[headcannon]

[Kisses your temple quickly, and hugs back]

[skinofalizard.livejournal.com]

[smiles into your neck]

Man, I really never know what to expect with this.

[sounds amused, though]

[headcannon]

I will do my best to not spring any nasty surprises on you.

[skinofalizard.livejournal.com]

Are there any?