[itp: no drama, just blatantly breaking the rule in the name of science]

[skinofalizard]

[knocks on David's door]

Comments

[headcannon]

[Opens it, blinks]

Ah, Victor. This is... rather surprising. I've not seen much of you, of late.

[Steps aside to let you in] That's not to say I'm not pleased, of course.

[skinofalizard.livejournal.com]

[enters, slowly like he's not entirely sure he should be here]

Yeah, I figured...maybe you needed some time.

[headcannon]

[Shuts the door behind you: now you're TRAPPED HAHA TRAPPED. Or not]

Of course. Is my time up, then? [wryly]

[skinofalizard.livejournal.com]

[winces a bit]

I was just...how are you?

[headcannon]

As fair as ever, I suppose.

...You'll forgive me for being rather curt -- I am, of course, glad to see you, and if you've come to see me for no reason other than that we enjoy each other's company, then all the better.

However, if you've some particular errand in mind, I'd prefer to not dance around it for the next however long.

[skinofalizard.livejournal.com]

I just thought...maybe we should talk.

[headcannon]

Very well.

[The bedroom has acquired chairs, and a desk, at some point, because sitting on the floor or the bed for doing paperwork only makes sense if you're a 14 year old girl.]

[offers you one. A chair, not a 14 year old girl.]

[skinofalizard.livejournal.com]

[takes it the 14 year old girl, of course]

Do you...I mean, have you...

[god this is awkward]

[headcannon]

[Waits, making patient face]


Take your time.

[skinofalizard.livejournal.com]

[sighs. the direct route is probably the best one to take, here]

What are you going to do?

[headcannon]

I... have not quite decided, to be quite honest.

More to the point, I am distinctly uncomfortable with the choice being left to me, alone. I know the both of you wanted me to consider my own feelings as well, but even so I am far from the only person involved, and as such, don't feel this is something I can decide without your input.

[skinofalizard.livejournal.com]

That's not what I'm trying to do. I just...you need to figure out what you want, before anything else can be done. I mean...you know how I feel about you, and about this...thing. I don't know what ZEX has said, but I'm assuming you know his feelings, too. You're the only one that's still a question mark, here, David.

[headcannon]

Am I? Then, my apologies for not adequately communicating my feelings to either of you. I'd thought--

...I suppose it doesn't matter, how I'd interpreted my actions, if they were not read as such. Forgive me.

[skinofalizard.livejournal.com]

I can't talk for ZEX, but...all I know is that you like us both and don't want to hurt either one of us. That's--great. I don't want to hurt anyone, either, but...it's not possible, sometimes.

[headcannon]

Yes, precisely.

However, I find I am completely unprepared for such a situation. I've no lack of experience in making difficult choices, but rarely ones that are so... personal. I'm sorry to say that it's not a choice easily, or quickly, made.

It's not a choice I particularly enjoy thinking about at all, to be quite honest.

[skinofalizard.livejournal.com]

It's not one I'm thrilled about, either. Hell, I've never even had a boyfriend, before. You were my first kiss!

[small smile]

Who knew what I was getting into.

[headcannon]

It's become rather complicated, hasn't it? For that, I do apologize.

[skinofalizard.livejournal.com]

You were worth it.

[was that past tense? oh shits it was]

[headcannon]

Ah, you've made a choice of your own, have you?

[skinofalizard.livejournal.com]

[sighs]

It should be easier than this, shouldn't it? This choice...it should hurt, but...it shouldn't be hard.

[headcannon]

...Why not? [Reaches out to touch your arm lightly]

Please understand, I'm not trying to be... overly difficult. It's-- [sighs] You care for me, do you not?

[skinofalizard.livejournal.com]

Of course I do.

[headcannon]

[Nods]

And I, you. Deeply.

But I feel very similarly about ZEX -- being faced with having to somehow convince myself to only feel that way about one of you is then difficult. I don't see how it couldn't be.

[skinofalizard.livejournal.com]

It sounds like you agree with ZEX, then...

[headcannon]

Mm, I'm not sure he's told me his opinion on the matter.