Okay, so first up the mistletoe because that is how I roll.
There is pretty much no chance that Julian will ever, ever admit to any kind of sexual attraction to a dude. He is the most heterosexual dude in the world so help him god. He's basically chalked up anything that would suggest, imply or state that he could maybe find any dude attractive to be camp fucking with him. Every time. It is a truly impressive piece of denial, tbqh, given that i am a terrible person and toss him into these situations all the time.
That said, it is kind of annoying/disturbing him a bit that he does get into these situations and he does respond because it is just HE'S NOT A GIRL GODDAMMIT SELF. He acts cavalier about it because it's how Julian rolls; if he can act cavalier about something that troubles him, you better believe that he is going to take that route. He's not sure if he believes that it was mistletoe or not but he is kind of if I keep saying it it becomes true, so it's one way to avoid any kind of awkward feelings. Though really Julian would strongly self-identify as being heterosexual anyway but I am getting off topic.
So! Making out with Victor! He is adamant that it was camp screwing with his head. If he was pressed, he would admit ultimately that he found the tongue pretty damned hot and topping Victor was immense fun, but he would be quick to add that that was just because camp made him do it and he wouldn't ever do it normally. Victor hasn't really made him question his sexuality because he is so firmly denying it that there's nothing to question.
Now onto Feelings Crap. Julian has decided that Victor and Josh are the most screwed up of all of them, just in different ways. He doesn't know how to fix either of them, but his reasoning is that the more he gets Victor to talk to him about things, the more he can try and work out just what actually is the problem and then fix it. He hates talking about feelings for feelings' sake; it's honest to god him trying to diagnose what the issue actually is so that he can go out and fix it. He's a fixer! That's how he works! Which is how it came up with Sofia; Julian trusts Sofia's perspective on people's issues because she's as much a people person as he is, and she has the advantage of being clear-sighted enough to be able to say whether he's right or not.
He does think it's blatantly obvious that Victor is Not All Right At All, but that's because Julian is really good at reading people (it's how he knows what buttons to push to piss people off, and how he gets his team so devoutly loyal to him) and he hasn't quite worked out yet that that's his particular gift and not ... that everyone can read people that well. So he is kind of "well obviously you're not all right, Vic, seriously, cut this shit out and take five to get your head sorted out" and then we can work on everyone else. And by "we", I mean "Vic and Sofia" because Julian is not functional so much as having made his dysfunction work for him in this specific circumstance. If pressed, his coping mechanisms would pretty much splinter around him because they're not great.
I know I said this in IRC, but Julian ... isn't that sure that he can be fixed. He's changed so much, he can see that in the way that Sofia looks at him and the way that everyone else looks at him when he can tolerate talking to them that ... yeah. He thinks he's too fucked up. So he's decided that that's fine, whatever, he doesn't care. But he can see how Vic could be helped and so he's ... determined to make that happen.
SO YES. DID ANY OF THAT MAKE SENSE.
Also how many shitfits would Vic flip if he found out that Julian considers him that much a risk to himself?
I don't think he'd flip shits. He'd probably be upset and maybe a little hurt about it, but then he'd...probably talk about feelings again lol and explain to Julian why, as long as there is one other person around, he will never break if just because he refuses to be a burden.
Uhhhh...oh! What would Julian do/think/feel if Victor and Sofia did swap Julian mistletoe stories?
IT DEPENDS ON THE STORIES. If they are about how awesome he is, then that's okay. If they are about how terrible he is, then he'd be pissed off and mortified. He cares less about what Victor has to say than Sofia because he actually cares what Sofia thinks about his kissing technique. I'M SORRY VICTOR. :(
If Victor could go anywhere for a day, where would he go?
No clue. I was going to get to the point where I just do a random number generator and whatever canon it throws up on the new list is where he's going. HE COULD END UP GOING TO EQUESTRIA.
Does he view it as running away from his responsibilities that Julian doesn't want to go back to the school or Utopia?
Yes. Go to Equestria, Julian. No one there has hands, either. You'll fit right in.
No. Part of that is because he knows Julian's super depressed so if he thinks that will help him be less depressed then that's a good thing, and the other part is that Victor wouldn't assume that his thoughts/feelings/situation should be applied to everyone at the school.
Does Julian believe that basicallyeveryone in mutantcabin is sincere when they say they care about him/want him to be happy or does he think they're just saying it so they can feel better about themselves since they tried to help the fuckup?
It really depends on how Julian feels on any given day but the answer is "both". When he's having a good day then he thinks that maybe they're sincere, maybe they mean it and maybe he's not alone. When he's having a bad day, he thinks that they can' possibly mean it and that it's a sop for their own egos; if push came to shove he is pretty sure that no-one would come to help him. This balance is shifting somewhat because people do try in camp, beyond what they do in canon because apparently everyone in canon are a bunch of assholes. So the repeated efforts by everyone has been shifting the balance for him. He does start to believe it a little, but mostly he's just good at fronting on his good days. Bad days he does not give any fucks.
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There is pretty much no chance that Julian will ever, ever admit to any kind of sexual attraction to a dude. He is the most heterosexual dude in the world so help him god. He's basically chalked up anything that would suggest, imply or state that he could maybe find any dude attractive to be camp fucking with him. Every time. It is a truly impressive piece of denial, tbqh, given that i am a terrible person and toss him into these situations all the time.
That said, it is kind of annoying/disturbing him a bit that he does get into these situations and he does respond because it is just HE'S NOT A GIRL GODDAMMIT SELF. He acts cavalier about it because it's how Julian rolls; if he can act cavalier about something that troubles him, you better believe that he is going to take that route. He's not sure if he believes that it was mistletoe or not but he is kind of if I keep saying it it becomes true, so it's one way to avoid any kind of awkward feelings. Though really Julian would strongly self-identify as being heterosexual anyway but I am getting off topic.
So! Making out with Victor! He is adamant that it was camp screwing with his head. If he was pressed, he would admit ultimately that he found the tongue pretty damned hot and topping Victor was immense fun, but he would be quick to add that that was just because camp made him do it and he wouldn't ever do it normally. Victor hasn't really made him question his sexuality because he is so firmly denying it that there's nothing to question.
Now onto Feelings Crap. Julian has decided that Victor and Josh are the most screwed up of all of them, just in different ways. He doesn't know how to fix either of them, but his reasoning is that the more he gets Victor to talk to him about things, the more he can try and work out just what actually is the problem and then fix it. He hates talking about feelings for feelings' sake; it's honest to god him trying to diagnose what the issue actually is so that he can go out and fix it. He's a fixer! That's how he works! Which is how it came up with Sofia; Julian trusts Sofia's perspective on people's issues because she's as much a people person as he is, and she has the advantage of being clear-sighted enough to be able to say whether he's right or not.
He does think it's blatantly obvious that Victor is Not All Right At All, but that's because Julian is really good at reading people (it's how he knows what buttons to push to piss people off, and how he gets his team so devoutly loyal to him) and he hasn't quite worked out yet that that's his particular gift and not ... that everyone can read people that well. So he is kind of "well obviously you're not all right, Vic, seriously, cut this shit out and take five to get your head sorted out" and then we can work on everyone else. And by "we", I mean "Vic and Sofia" because Julian is not functional so much as having made his dysfunction work for him in this specific circumstance. If pressed, his coping mechanisms would pretty much splinter around him because they're not great.
I know I said this in IRC, but Julian ... isn't that sure that he can be fixed. He's changed so much, he can see that in the way that Sofia looks at him and the way that everyone else looks at him when he can tolerate talking to them that ... yeah. He thinks he's too fucked up. So he's decided that that's fine, whatever, he doesn't care. But he can see how Vic could be helped and so he's ... determined to make that happen.
SO YES. DID ANY OF THAT MAKE SENSE.
Also how many shitfits would Vic flip if he found out that Julian considers him that much a risk to himself?
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Uhhhh...oh! What would Julian do/think/feel if Victor and Sofia did swap Julian mistletoe stories?
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If Victor could go anywhere for a day, where would he go?
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Home. He hates it 99% of the time, but he'd see going anywhere else as running away, and he won't do that again.
Have you figured out where Julian's going for his day?
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Does he view it as running away from his responsibilities that Julian doesn't want to go back to the school or Utopia?
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No. Part of that is because he knows Julian's super depressed so if he thinks that will help him be less depressed then that's a good thing, and the other part is that Victor wouldn't assume that his thoughts/feelings/situation should be applied to everyone at the school.
Does Julian believe that basicallyeveryone in mutantcabin is sincere when they say they care about him/want him to be happy or does he think they're just saying it so they can feel better about themselves since they tried to help the fuckup?
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What's Victor's daily routine?