Okay, so first up the mistletoe because that is how I roll.
There is pretty much no chance that Julian will ever, ever admit to any kind of sexual attraction to a dude. He is the most heterosexual dude in the world so help him god. He's basically chalked up anything that would suggest, imply or state that he could maybe find any dude attractive to be camp fucking with him. Every time. It is a truly impressive piece of denial, tbqh, given that i am a terrible person and toss him into these situations all the time.
That said, it is kind of annoying/disturbing him a bit that he does get into these situations and he does respond because it is just HE'S NOT A GIRL GODDAMMIT SELF. He acts cavalier about it because it's how Julian rolls; if he can act cavalier about something that troubles him, you better believe that he is going to take that route. He's not sure if he believes that it was mistletoe or not but he is kind of if I keep saying it it becomes true, so it's one way to avoid any kind of awkward feelings. Though really Julian would strongly self-identify as being heterosexual anyway but I am getting off topic.
So! Making out with Victor! He is adamant that it was camp screwing with his head. If he was pressed, he would admit ultimately that he found the tongue pretty damned hot and topping Victor was immense fun, but he would be quick to add that that was just because camp made him do it and he wouldn't ever do it normally. Victor hasn't really made him question his sexuality because he is so firmly denying it that there's nothing to question.
Now onto Feelings Crap. Julian has decided that Victor and Josh are the most screwed up of all of them, just in different ways. He doesn't know how to fix either of them, but his reasoning is that the more he gets Victor to talk to him about things, the more he can try and work out just what actually is the problem and then fix it. He hates talking about feelings for feelings' sake; it's honest to god him trying to diagnose what the issue actually is so that he can go out and fix it. He's a fixer! That's how he works! Which is how it came up with Sofia; Julian trusts Sofia's perspective on people's issues because she's as much a people person as he is, and she has the advantage of being clear-sighted enough to be able to say whether he's right or not.
He does think it's blatantly obvious that Victor is Not All Right At All, but that's because Julian is really good at reading people (it's how he knows what buttons to push to piss people off, and how he gets his team so devoutly loyal to him) and he hasn't quite worked out yet that that's his particular gift and not ... that everyone can read people that well. So he is kind of "well obviously you're not all right, Vic, seriously, cut this shit out and take five to get your head sorted out" and then we can work on everyone else. And by "we", I mean "Vic and Sofia" because Julian is not functional so much as having made his dysfunction work for him in this specific circumstance. If pressed, his coping mechanisms would pretty much splinter around him because they're not great.
I know I said this in IRC, but Julian ... isn't that sure that he can be fixed. He's changed so much, he can see that in the way that Sofia looks at him and the way that everyone else looks at him when he can tolerate talking to them that ... yeah. He thinks he's too fucked up. So he's decided that that's fine, whatever, he doesn't care. But he can see how Vic could be helped and so he's ... determined to make that happen.
SO YES. DID ANY OF THAT MAKE SENSE.
Also how many shitfits would Vic flip if he found out that Julian considers him that much a risk to himself?
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There is pretty much no chance that Julian will ever, ever admit to any kind of sexual attraction to a dude. He is the most heterosexual dude in the world so help him god. He's basically chalked up anything that would suggest, imply or state that he could maybe find any dude attractive to be camp fucking with him. Every time. It is a truly impressive piece of denial, tbqh, given that i am a terrible person and toss him into these situations all the time.
That said, it is kind of annoying/disturbing him a bit that he does get into these situations and he does respond because it is just HE'S NOT A GIRL GODDAMMIT SELF. He acts cavalier about it because it's how Julian rolls; if he can act cavalier about something that troubles him, you better believe that he is going to take that route. He's not sure if he believes that it was mistletoe or not but he is kind of if I keep saying it it becomes true, so it's one way to avoid any kind of awkward feelings. Though really Julian would strongly self-identify as being heterosexual anyway but I am getting off topic.
So! Making out with Victor! He is adamant that it was camp screwing with his head. If he was pressed, he would admit ultimately that he found the tongue pretty damned hot and topping Victor was immense fun, but he would be quick to add that that was just because camp made him do it and he wouldn't ever do it normally. Victor hasn't really made him question his sexuality because he is so firmly denying it that there's nothing to question.
Now onto Feelings Crap. Julian has decided that Victor and Josh are the most screwed up of all of them, just in different ways. He doesn't know how to fix either of them, but his reasoning is that the more he gets Victor to talk to him about things, the more he can try and work out just what actually is the problem and then fix it. He hates talking about feelings for feelings' sake; it's honest to god him trying to diagnose what the issue actually is so that he can go out and fix it. He's a fixer! That's how he works! Which is how it came up with Sofia; Julian trusts Sofia's perspective on people's issues because she's as much a people person as he is, and she has the advantage of being clear-sighted enough to be able to say whether he's right or not.
He does think it's blatantly obvious that Victor is Not All Right At All, but that's because Julian is really good at reading people (it's how he knows what buttons to push to piss people off, and how he gets his team so devoutly loyal to him) and he hasn't quite worked out yet that that's his particular gift and not ... that everyone can read people that well. So he is kind of "well obviously you're not all right, Vic, seriously, cut this shit out and take five to get your head sorted out" and then we can work on everyone else. And by "we", I mean "Vic and Sofia" because Julian is not functional so much as having made his dysfunction work for him in this specific circumstance. If pressed, his coping mechanisms would pretty much splinter around him because they're not great.
I know I said this in IRC, but Julian ... isn't that sure that he can be fixed. He's changed so much, he can see that in the way that Sofia looks at him and the way that everyone else looks at him when he can tolerate talking to them that ... yeah. He thinks he's too fucked up. So he's decided that that's fine, whatever, he doesn't care. But he can see how Vic could be helped and so he's ... determined to make that happen.
SO YES. DID ANY OF THAT MAKE SENSE.
Also how many shitfits would Vic flip if he found out that Julian considers him that much a risk to himself?