When it was just him in camp, Julian just never bothered because what was the point? People never got it, thought he was exaggerating for attention and told him to take a teaspoon of concrete and harden up. He already judges himself pretty harshly for being severely depressed (though his own take on it is that he's being pathetic and needs to suck it up) so he doesn't really need to hear it from other people. But for the other mutants, that's very different. They're his friends, though Julian is messed up enough that he doesn't really want to call them that, so people need to understand why they are the way they are, and if there is an adult who can help them then he wants to find them for their sake.
If it was just him, he wouldn't be bothered. Sometimes he doesn't even think he can be helped. However, his friends are different and he's got a hierarchy of who needs some kind of outside help in degrees of urgency, and with Josh and Victor both in camp, they are the top two on his list. He is genuinely afraid that either one of them will do something very drastic to make everything stop, and this belief is not really helped much by Sofia (whose opinions he trusts implicitly) basically going "these dudes are fucked up bro". He knows that he's kind of not in the right space to do anything, though he doesn't really understand why (he knows that he's severely depressed, he just doesn't know what to do with that knowledge now) so he is trying to find someone who can help them even in the short term so that he can get himself sorted out, work out how to self-actualise enough to fix his own depression and then take it back and help his friends out.
It's a really terrible series of decisions rooted in desperation and despair, really, by a teenaged boy who doesn't know how to fix a situation he never created and whose own issues are actually making everything worse but this being Julian Keller, he won't give up. So he'll keep trying, keep battering his head against people's preconceptions, until he finds the person who gets it and will help the others. He gets really frustrated when it becomes about him, because he is just I'M NOT THE PROBLEM HERE, THEY ARE, THEY NEED YOU GO AND HELP THEM.
This is why he has gotten all up in every adult counsellor's business giving them the side-eye too. He's trying to gauge what levels of threat they are to their counsellee and whether they can help or just not make things worse.
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When it was just him in camp, Julian just never bothered because what was the point? People never got it, thought he was exaggerating for attention and told him to take a teaspoon of concrete and harden up. He already judges himself pretty harshly for being severely depressed (though his own take on it is that he's being pathetic and needs to suck it up) so he doesn't really need to hear it from other people. But for the other mutants, that's very different. They're his friends, though Julian is messed up enough that he doesn't really want to call them that, so people need to understand why they are the way they are, and if there is an adult who can help them then he wants to find them for their sake.
If it was just him, he wouldn't be bothered. Sometimes he doesn't even think he can be helped. However, his friends are different and he's got a hierarchy of who needs some kind of outside help in degrees of urgency, and with Josh and Victor both in camp, they are the top two on his list. He is genuinely afraid that either one of them will do something very drastic to make everything stop, and this belief is not really helped much by Sofia (whose opinions he trusts implicitly) basically going "these dudes are fucked up bro". He knows that he's kind of not in the right space to do anything, though he doesn't really understand why (he knows that he's severely depressed, he just doesn't know what to do with that knowledge now) so he is trying to find someone who can help them even in the short term so that he can get himself sorted out, work out how to self-actualise enough to fix his own depression and then take it back and help his friends out.
It's a really terrible series of decisions rooted in desperation and despair, really, by a teenaged boy who doesn't know how to fix a situation he never created and whose own issues are actually making everything worse but this being Julian Keller, he won't give up. So he'll keep trying, keep battering his head against people's preconceptions, until he finds the person who gets it and will help the others. He gets really frustrated when it becomes about him, because he is just I'M NOT THE PROBLEM HERE, THEY ARE, THEY NEED YOU GO AND HELP THEM.
This is why he has gotten all up in every adult counsellor's business giving them the side-eye too. He's trying to gauge what levels of threat they are to their counsellee and whether they can help or just not make things worse.
So has anything changed with Victor and Julian?